Brent has now moved to a completely different stage in
his recovery. Even though he is getting better every day, he feels less and
less comfortable as he is not treated with the same care and kindness as he was
used to at the hospital. It is interesting to observe how Brent has a very hard
time in the duPont Institute because he is faced with the reality that he is
not the only one being taken care of. He demonstrates his rage when he says: “I
was in Children’s for like four months and had my own room, and now I have to
fucking share a room with another person” (p. 172). I was impressed by how
spoiled Brent had become. First, he was saying that he did not like Children’s
Hospital because of the food and Dr. Rubinstein. Now he says he does not like
the institute either. It might be the desperation he is experiencing that makes
him think like this and have trouble enjoying things. Brent has become more
stubborn as time goes by and is only willing to accept the best of the best.
Under his conditions, one should be grateful to have people taking care of him
as they are doing.
The tone in the book is for the most part regretful,
since Brent repeatedly has stated his desire to go back in time and stop
himself from lighting the robe on fire. There are two main ways in which his
regret is exposed. One is through sorrow when he reflects upon his decision and
thinks that it was certainly not the correct one. The second way is when he is
angry with himself, which makes him be angry with the people around him. The
first one can be seen in Brent’s reflection: “Someone who could jump into your
body just when you were about to make the biggest mistake of your life and keep
you from doing it. That would be great. That would be amazing. I wish that was
true” (p. 149). Even TV shows remind him of the dreadful decision he made and
how it will affect him for the rest of his existence.
Will Brent continue to develop this attitude of
frustration towards life? Will he continue to shut himself up? Although Brent
does not talk to other people about the incident, he thinks about it all the
time. I know it is very difficult to talk to other people about such personal
and uncomfortable subjects, but it seems to be the only way for Brent to get help
and to learn a better way of dealing with the problem. Rose is definitely not
helping in this sense with her useless comments. Brent will have to learn who
is best to talk to and reintegrate with the real world, leaving behind the
decision that marked his life.
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